Wednesday, July 21, 2004

A seed of unrest and confusion was planted in my heart.I quietly looked at her in a distance.I wanted to tok to her but no words came frm my mouth.Suddenly the world's so cold and lonely.I screamed from inside for God's help.Nothing seemed to wrok and it seemed to becoming even worse.Our frendship was getting plainer and plainer.She nv looks or talks to me.All along i was a mad man, toking to himself.Msgs lay unreplied.As a desperate attempt, i tried schemes and plot.Nothing seemed to hav worked.A tiny but powerful voice emerged frm the back of my head."Mayb u shld just give up...it chanted"I held my will and sought others for help.Some was reluctant and others just dunno how to help.Here im writing,hoping this will make things better.But i know it wont.Nobody comes here to this quiet place anymore.Mayb it would be better not to think so much and just give up.It wud be a lot simpler just to be around ur buddies and joking ur head off.I shld hav liked her for it caused so much pain. A nail stucking my heart but unable to die.Im confused,very confused.I dunno what to do.Shall i make initaitive or let time take its toil?Or shld i just seek another and forget forever?I truly dont know.With the coming challenges and more important piorities, i think for once it's better to just go study and stay as my own self...the silent, quiet self...Physics and History mock test on Sat,my heart pounded violently as i rushed to revise the chapters.Let's just hope things will turn for the better.Fingers crossed.Looks like i'll try praying again tonight...even if it may not work... -frm a soul screaming frm within-