Saturday, April 29, 2006

had been blog surfing and i was very happy to find myself so fortunate.i mean...hey!there are ppl who tag me regularly, read my crap, send my bday wishes(both people i know well and even people i just meet on the net) and most importantly, i am happy to have frends who appreciates wad i have done for them and frends who really love and care for me.

i can nv understand why people try so hard to get their frends' attention, gf/bf attention or even ex's attention. mayb it's just because i have real genuine frends that really share their lives with me,vice versa.i see people ard me suffering....just because they cant let go.they couldnt define wad's love.even if the person hits her,she continues to long for that person.is that really love or are they just blind?it mayb love from her....but wad abt him? to have falsely accused u and be irresponsible and even push u and hurt u.these people are just too navie and foolish.

mayb these people are able to love someone who doesnt love them or even hate them.im not that great.

my mind is slowly getting more and more like that of a skeptic.i need evidences to believein smth.even if there are evidences,i question the evidences.such is the case for my own religion.i felt that christainty i just a believe where most ppl agree to.the books in the bible carefully chosen with regards to popular believe while other texts are simply regarded as rubbish without further investigations.gosphel of judas is an example.and there are actually many more gosphels that exists.wad is man to have the authority to choose for themselves which is the truth.moreover...many of these texts are written 60-100 yrs after jesus' death.there is a possiblilty of false memory.there are no artifects to proof that such an event happened.

some brother told me, that's wad christianity all about.believing something u cant see.but i dun wan to believe in smth made to be true and in the end find myself wasting my time.faith is such a mysterious thing......and i dun wan ANYONE give me their comments, i wan to find out for myself.ur help wont work at all.