Monday, October 30, 2006

today finally know how it feels like to worry for someone.that fear, that uncertainty,the sorrow. i would never wan to experience it again....this is how it began...

initially, i was out with my frend when suddenly she had to pang seh me to meet her another frend.i mean, it's quite ok, i was sad cos i felt used but this is not the important thing.the guy who was coming to fetch her(with a car), isnt her close frend.they knew each other only for 1 week.and imagine a girl a guy and a car.that's freaking dangerous u know?anything could happen. i tried to persuade her not to go as it is too risky.but she says it's ok.soon the car came.and i sent her off.gotta send a strong signal to the guy....i will nv forgive myself if anything happens to her.cos i failed to change her mind.she promised me that she will call once she reached home.as i left.i muttered a silient prayer.hoping that she will be okay...

it was ard 11pm.i was meeting shiekh at aljunied to study at alj mac.i still havent recieved my frends call.was getting kind of worried.so i calle.so my horror, a guy picked up the phone instead.when i asked to speak to my frend, the guy quickly cancelled the call.adrenaline surged through me.i call serveral times more.no answer...i sms-ed but there's still no answer.

when i and sheikh reached mac.i called again.someone rejected the call upon connection.by this time.im like cats on hot bricks.i prayed and prayed.it was an hour later when i decided that i shld call again.still no answer.by that time, it's 12.she shld be at home by 10:30pm.i sms-ed her serveral times.still no reply.by this time, tears are brimming....

then near to 1am.i recieved her sms.it happens that her phone was left in her frend's car.and her frend drove back to give her back.at that point in time. i was overwhelmed.but at the same time, a sense of relief came to me.i tot that i was silly...worrying so much.mayb it's because i know the dangers of the world too well and the risks.im just glad that she's safe and sound.i would never ever want this kind of feeling again...........

i could feel such strong feelings for just a normal frend.i could never imagine how would i feel if smth happens to my loved ones.and im glad i havent faced this feeling yet....