Sunday, December 09, 2007

time passes so quickly.it has been almost...one yr. one yr of my life spent in army.
let's calculate how much i've got from the tax payers. $500x12= $6000 .$6000 in one yr. omg, that's "alot". i know frends who only earn $1500 per month as an office clerk. im earning so much more than them. wow!

and my upcoming role of medic 2 IC just makes it better. +$20 per month and much more sai kang. luckily i will be the guy who plan out the duties. *evil eyes* which means i probably do very lil. even if do wont do weekend...muhahhahaa!

reflecting on this yr. few things wanna regret. 1st of all, being too busy with my own life.i know army is tough and so on. but time shld also b given to those frends whom i seldom meet. my parents. shld hav a more pro active attitude in meeting them. not just wait for them to jio me out. heh.

2nd, i did not lose weight. in contrast. i gain weight. SHIT!!! i hope it's just muscle mass.

3rd.i've become an evil person.im not the happy go luckily guy anymore.at least at work. i feel that im always treated unfairly when ppl push their job to me. how i react?threaten them.outwit them. isnt the way that shld be.although really need to save my own ass.

but,this yr is also smth i can b thankful of. after being in army. perhaps i have learnt how to appreciate lil things ard me. things like a toilet roll, water heater and even my parents and such. being away from them makes ur life so weird. we often tkae these stuff for granted. water heater always there to give u a warm bath and ur parents always there to look after u.we find comfort from them.

another thing is that i felt that i hav grown. im no longer that nerdy kid playing with computer games all day. im more aware of ppl's life. i wanna get involve in ppl's life. not just an advisor who give advices. but someone who will walk thru tough time.

one thing i wish i could improve on is being faithful and able to give thanks unto the Lord no matter wad happens. being in my current situation.(in army + no uni) i often complain and plead unto God to give me the stuff i wan. but, naked i've come and naked i'll leave.the lord has given and th lord has taken. all these stuff that i "have" isnt really mine. i shld alrdy be thankful for wad little i have. :( hope there will be a renewing and changing of my mind in this area.