Saturday, March 29, 2008

mom has gone for a holiday to shanghai to find my dad. im alone at home. initially...it was quite ok till it came to monday and tuesday. everybody's busy and suddenly i had a feeling that im all alone. a gazillion thoughts ran thru my mind about life. eventually...everyone's gonna be away. will i live my pitiful life alone? and suffer the lonliness? Lonliness...it's a scary thing. i merely experienced it for 2 days but i could not bear it even.... So what am i here for? Might as well just pass away for all returns to dust anyways....why go thru the suffering?

the thoughts continue to linger in my head...till today.i am not fully enlightened about y am i here. but im convincted that im not alone on this earth even if the whole human race is wiped out from the face of the earth. it was during the ops msk period that i encountered the visible person ever so personally again. i was reading a book about Jospeh. He spoke to me thru the book about my attitudes in army and gave me a model who had faith in Him. He corrected my thoughts and calm my heart during my fustrations when the ops was extended.

and today, i am even more convicted that He is indeed alive and presence when i read a frend's blog on her decision of wanting to come back to Him. it was a prayer many of our brothers have prayed and worked towards to.He is certainly at work! In fact...in these few months or even yrs. He is alrdy at work! Now He has commanded us to harvest! May we now be obedient to His cry for the harvest is plentiful and the workers are few! Harvest is a short period of time. Let us gather all that we can for those that are left will be decayed and birds will come and feed.

To all brothers and sisters reading my blog. Let us pray and do our part!Harvest the great maltitude! With God as our strength, we will be able to!