Scroll of Darkness

2009-07-03T00:00:00.002+08:00

hiie,

it's been a long time. havent blogged cos i was just plain lazy and didnt have much to talk about either. :S

ohh yea!! for the past one month(june). i have been spensing alot of my time in EYF!
and really wanna thank God for the opportunity to serve Him and HIs people as a co-shepherd.

during EYF, i thank God for constantly sharpening me. esp in the area of patience where i lack so much in. trust me, it aint easy being patience to kids who have very short attention span being a task orientated person. i thank God that in my impatience i didnt scold them but rather be able to take on their point of view yet also able to bring them back to God.

during EYF, also got to know alot more frends better, old ones(cheong siblings) and new ones(Alson,Adam, Amos), thus able to have a more intimate fellowship with them.

guess the most memorable thing abt eyf for me is the finale.
indeed true...will we get on this journey singing praises to God,quick in supporting one another? or will our minds jus go blank, forgetting why we are on this journey.

every obstacle we face builds us up in our character as well as fellowship with one another. will u too walk this journey with me? with God!

2009-05-24T22:52:00.002+08:00

i realised that nobody probably reads this blog anymore...well...not the usual ones in the past whom frequent here,one of which whom i so cared about...

Dear Friend,

As i write this letter to you. I wish that one day you may come to your senses that i may not have to pen this down and deliever it to your house.

It has been 3yrs coming to 4. And i thank God unceasing for continue giving me the heart as well as the stamina to reach out to you. Though i must confess perhaps it was due to my liking for you last time that im still contacting you with whatever means.However, it is indeed true as written in the bible," you meant it for evil, but God meant it for good."

It has come to my attention that your spiritual walk with God has come to an stand still.Or worse, it has not been in existance at all in the first place.

As I recollect the times you were with us in Emmaus, i realised that it was a mere 7months before you left because of parental objections.Then about 5months later, you said you wanna come back but after your promos....then about 3months later, it was about parental objection again...

On the day we met to sort out our differences i rmb asking you a question."If you haven't had parental objections, would you choose volunteerism o God?" Volunteerism, you answered.

So what was your real reason for forsaking God? The answer is simple, the world is more attractive to you. A slave cannot serve two masters. In the same way you can only love God or the world for both are in conflict.

Have you ever wondered why God chose to send rain that faithful day in Cambodia?God doesnt just wants you to know He is there.God wants you to be with Him.As you have said, God sent the rain that you may believe.It means to Him that you believe and want to be with Him.

Perhaps you are stucked with just God being real. But have you realised that He loved you so much that He sent His Son to die for you? We are all undeserving of His Son. We who are so sinful, who reject God again and again and continue to fix our eyes on earthly things...Yet God died for the undeserving, that we might not be condemned but be with Him in an eternal relationship.

Truthfully, i felt that as you commit yourself more to volunteerism, i feel even more distant away from you. I can no longer understand your thoughts and feelings. We live by two different morale compasses. We live according to two different gods.

In the beginning of time, Adam slapped God in the face rejecting Him. Now that God has revealed Himself to us again through His Son Jesus, shall we slap Him in the face once again and reject Him?

As i wrote this note to you. I alrdy know that it would strain our alrdy soured friendship.But i know if i do not tell u of this truth, i am not your friend at all.

Prayerfully,
Henry

2009-04-24T00:08:00.002+08:00

WOE UNTO ME!!

THE KING INVITED HIS TOP OFFICIALS, ADVISORS AND CLOSEST FRENDS TO HIS PARTY,A FEAST INDEED.

YET SOME REFUSED TO COME. SAYING THAT THEY NEED TO FINISH THEIR CHORES OR HAVE OTHER THINGS TO DO INSTEAD.

WOE UNTO ME!!WOE UNTO ME!!

2009-02-14T00:36:00.002+08:00

"oh how i hate this feeling! every year at this time.."
thus sayth the shoutout from my fb.

yes, valentine's is a pain in the nether regions to me.in fact in my 21 yrs of life, i've only celebrated it once. sure that there's nth to boast when u've celebrated it many times with someone(special or not) but my human nature cannot resist but envy all those around.perhaps it's my sanguine nature that i want someone to feel that im special to them.not in the mother father thinks that their son is special that kinda way but..u get the point.

valentine's day-oh! how i hate this day! will everyone be more sensitive to this lonely soul here? will u leave ur lovey dovey actions in the dark?! ohh my eyes!!! they are burning!!

k man, since im so filled with sianess and envy, i must turn these negative feelings into energy! i must channel this energy to train myself into the best fighter in the world!!!!! hiiyyaaahh!!!

2009-01-09T00:50:00.000+08:00

http://www.oneishy.com/personality/results/3f8a16ed7

im a choleric sanguine. certainly army has changed me. :S

2009-01-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

yay...so finally asks me to blog.lol! the last post was in sept 2008, one yr ago...lol. i very very very very lazy so acty most of the time no mood to type.

but since someone's still reading my blog.. I WILL BLOG FOR UR SAKE! =D

2008 has been an exciting yr. partly becoz i ORD-ed on 11 NOVMBER 2008. the date i hav always waited. and finally it has arrvied and im FREEE!!!

partly becoz also GOd has filled my yr will temptations, trials, discouragements but admist that thanks giving , growth and a much deeper understanding of God's sovereignty and love for me.

He has renewed my conviction that im a sinner and that im a recepient of His love(jesus christ) thru christocentric camp and church camp. He has made me aware that it it not what i've done to bring ppl to Him but His will alone. And He has made me not giving up on reaching out to some of the frends cos God has pursued us 1st...and it took Him 14yrs to pursue me and even after He is still caring and growing with me. yup...

The brothers came to my hse on new yr eve to celebrate. we had worship, sharings of thanksgiving as well as growth pts. My growth pt for this yr is to grow in WORD...that i would hear his word, retain it in my heart, and perseevere in obedience and by that produce a crop...abiding in God.

in tthis yr 2009 it would be an exciting one cos i have 7 months till i go NTU/NIE. will hav to plan properly what i do with my time.hope to catch up with frends...many of them this long break and do things that i've been wanting to do... yupp..

guess that's abt it. if want more posts, continue to post of my tagboard. then i know someone's reading. :)

2008-09-29T00:36:00.002+08:00

2nd week of my lobo....really really lobo. nth planned out. just slack. gonna be like that for nine months after i ORD. at such, these are the few big/small decisions i have made to use this time wisely and fruitfully.

1.train TKD, get the bloody black belt finally after like 4yrs.
2.learn guitar. ^^ musical knowledge. learn to play songs to worship God.
3.work in ATC, help young ppl. influence others to join too
3.church camp. i have deicided to go.
5.catch up wiv frends. lots of frends. army made me a social hermit.

these are wad i tot so far. just touching the surface. have a much deeper purpose for all these. but shall not reveal. ;)

2008-09-23T13:50:00.002+08:00

very disgusting sai kangs here we come, humans of every creed and race.
humans to animals we will become, everyday we get spat in the face!
sai kangs warriors, we are the warriors, sai kang warriors we suck our thumb!
doing sai kang day and night, give us more, no need pay.
trained to suck thumb day and night, we will jump from greater heights!

sai kang song

2008-09-23T00:13:00.002+08:00

want!

what do i want?? if it were mayb 6 months ago, i might tell u i want a special someone to hang out with. but den, how do u get that special someone? it seems hard to ans...it's not just like going to the supermarket and picking up the groceries u want. heard an interesting comment over "muttons to midnight". it goes like " u can never find love, cos u fall into it. and like falling, u nv plan for it to happen"

quite true in some sense. so, what do i want now? mmmmmm.... i think i shld just be practical and materialistic. rather than character growth and wad not..

1st of all, I WANT MY TKD BLACK BELT!!! it's going to come in march. muahhahahahhaha!! im going join ntu tkd as a black belt and wow all the girlss!!! muahahhahahahahhahahahahahha!!

2nd, i want money. a whole lot of it.i wanna buy all the things i want without having to think. a few things on my list are:
a new guitar + hard casing
a new laptop
some multipurpose shoe for sports
new shirts (professional looking ones)
S&K cargo pants!

3rd, ok, these are skills i wanna acquire.mainly for wow-ing ppl.
break dancing skills! (u may tot i know how to, but i dont...i just watch and mimic)
really really good tkd skills (im 70% there =))
God-like guitar skills (painstaking)

as u read all these, u can clearing see that im not myself today. hahahahah. by these are my tots at the moment.

oh yes, met michelle/hengyee/chan a few........weeks back to have dinner. OMG!! SHE REALLY GOT ME A BDAY PRESENT! it's a lovely cookies and cream set.have been using it quite often..=X (damn, i need to exercise) ohh and i forgot to bring the stuff she wanted. XD

also meet amie and gang for victor's bday. and she's still got that braces...it's been like....5yrs alrdy.haahaha. and her braces' rubber band snapped during dinner. LOLZ!

erms erms, im on 3 weeks break now. so i would vvvv appreciate that someone would ask me out cos im bored to death at home.

this is henry, sigining off. love u guys. although i dun think anyone reads my blog.

2008-08-07T10:12:00.002+08:00

愛拼才會贏 engrish ver. by henry

u break-up, of cos will heart break
u no hope, of cos will worry
the day that u lost hope, everyday blur blur
ur body with no soul, like scarecrow

our life is like the waves rolling on the seas
sometimes up, sometimes down
good luck! bad luck!
still have to pick urself up
30 percent good luck, 70 percent hard work
must work hard then will win!

2008-08-07T10:05:00.002+08:00

im enlightened. i know why this conflict has occured. cos we have different expectations of a frendship. i cant force her into mine. she cant force me into hers.

2008-08-07T09:18:00.002+08:00

wad are frends to me? frends are people who share their lives with u. who pick u up when ur're down and share ur happiness when u have success, vice versa. how can then one be frends if all along when only one side is sharing and communicating?

got very angry at one of my frends for her consistant refusal to tell me anything abt her life. why do i have to cajole her into telling me the smallest of things, as if it's none of my bussiness anyways.

i felt that im not trusted,i am not a frend, just an acquaintance. a person who just comes and goes in her life. if for 3 yrs im just a person like that, i laugh at myself for being a fool. i pity myself for being such a busy body.

frendship cant be forced. shld i still regard her as a frend?

2008-07-17T16:05:00.002+08:00

today is a lousy lousy day. i feel lousy. very lousy. in fact i feel worse than shit.

get back from home from duty this morning. and nth seems to be able to excited me. usually i would get amsued watching youtube....not today. played some computer games. made me feel even worse. cos i did not win a single game......tried to watch a movie. dun feel much after that.

damn.....it's just one of those lousy days. doing nth seem right at all...

2008-07-15T09:34:00.002+08:00

Do Not Worry

Therefore, I tell you, don't be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Isn't life more than food, and the body more than clothing? See the birds of the sky, that they don't sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns. Your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren't you of much more value than they?

"Which of you, by being anxious, can add one moment to his lifespan? Why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow. They don't toil, neither do they spin, yet I tell you that even Solomon in all his glory was not dressed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today exists, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, won't he much more clothe you, you of little faith?

"Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore don't be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day's own evil is sufficient.

This is what God shown me recently. Some of you may find it easy to do so...not so much when the circumstances come and everything is against you. Why am i bringing this up? Well, just 3 days ago. The department my dad is working in shanghai closed down. As a results, all the employees in that department is being retrenched. My dad is quite old...close to 60. it's hard for him to get a new job. He was the sole bread winner. And all this equates that if he is unable to get a job, i would become the sole breadwinner of the family.

Like, wow! im only 20. i wont be just working so that i could get the stuff i wanted but rather to support the entire family.During my training with MOE, i would be recieving abt 1.4K. But i doubt it would be sufficiently enough.

Then again, i know what Jesus says....it's just so hard...so hard to have faith.The person inside of me is screaming and frantically looking for a way out of this situation.Yet how true..."Therefore don't be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day's own evil is sufficient."

2008-07-06T16:21:00.002+08:00

a lil update of my life...

my "schedule"

Sunday- TKD! =D, Book in =(

Monday- In camp...sian..

Tuesday- In camp...GYM!(after 5pm)muscle time!!

Wednesday- In camp...nights out!(6pm-1130pm) play lan,shopping,dinner outside etc.

Thursday- In camp...GYM!(after 5pm)six packs!six packs!six packs!!

Friday- In camp...book out!!book out!!book out!!book out!!book out!!(after 5pm) =D

Saturday- Foundation class + Youthfellowship =D

not too bad. but hope there's someone to spice up my life more =D

2008-06-19T20:39:00.003+08:00

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Honest

Like it or not, your friends are going to hear the truth from you.
You know that the truth hurts, but living a life of lies is much worse.

So while you're definitely kind and supportive, you don't pull any punches with your friends.
Everyone knows where they stand with you. And what you like and dislike about them.

While some may be initially turned off by your honesty, your friends have come to consider it a virtue.
After all, in world of white lies and deceptive politeness, you can be counted on for honesty and integrity.

Your friends need you most when: They need good advice or an intelligent opinion

You really can't be friends with: Needy, emotional people

Your friendship quote: "True friendship can afford true knowledge. It does not depend on darkness and ignorance."

http://www.blogthings.com/whatmakesyouagoodfriendquiz/">What Makes You a Good Friend?

Your Love is Based on Commitment

You believe that love is something that develops and grows.
You don't believe in love at first site, and you never mistake lust for love.
For you, love is about mutual devotion, respect, and understanding.
You don't feel comfortable in a relationship, unless you're both in it for the long run.

Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily

Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship

http://www.blogthings.com/whatisyourlovebasedonquiz/">What Is Your Love Based On?

Your EQ is 147

You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.
You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.

While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.
But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

You Act Like You Are 16 Years Old

You are a teenager at heart. You don't quite feel like a grown up yet, but you don't feel like a kid.
You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

You're quite rebellious, and you don't like being told what to do. You like to do things your way.
You have your own unique style, taste in music, and outlook on life.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/">What Age Do You Act?

You Make a Great First Impression

You can handle almost any social situation with grace, even the tricky ones.
Strangers often find you charming and interesting. You are often remembered fondly.
Even if you're not naturally outgoing, you can make conversation with anyone if you need to.

Whether you were born this way or had to work to get here, you are definitely charismatic.
You're popular and well liked. People definitely look forward to being around you.
Your social connections bring you a full and rich life. You understand how important it is to make a lasting impression.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindoffirstimpressiondoyoumakequiz/">What Kind of First Impression Do You Make?

Your Dating Purity Score: 71%

You are an under-experienced dater.
This doesn't mean you're unexperienced - far from it.
It just means that there's a lot of romance left to discover!

http://www.blogthings.com/datingpuritytest/">Dating Purity Test

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

You Are a Positive Person

No one would accuse you of being too negative!
You're a naturally upbeat and optimistic person.

Like everyone else, you come across things you can't stand every day.
But unlike everyone else, you ignore what annoys you and focus on what uplifts you.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyoutoonegativequiz/">Are You Too Negative?

You Are a Great Listener

You are the perfect person to talk to.
You are patient, empathetic, and encouraging.

You provide subtle, but important, feedback.
You let people say everything that needs to be said before you weigh in.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouagoodlistnerquiz/">Are You a Good Listener?

2008-05-30T21:09:00.002+08:00

My belated birthday celebration...where hengyee CLAIMS that she forgot to brought my gift. :P

2008-05-09T23:02:00.001+08:00

out of sheer boredom, i ran. 5km on my own today. i still don't feel shag. smth must be wrong. OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS!!! I HAVE BECOME STRONGER AND FITTER!!!!

daft punk: working harder makes us stronger, do it better makes us faster....

2008-05-03T23:16:00.001+08:00

2008-05-02T23:18:00.002+08:00

hi ppl, guess wad? i just got an interview for teaching!! ohh myy goodness gracious!! so excited, this is my 1st ever offical interview by an organisation!

while thinking through the qns that they are going to ask, many questions about life popped into my mind. what do i want to do as a teacher? it is easy to give a cliche ans such as "so that i can educate and touch the lives of young ppl" but if we further look into the ans, what usually comes to mind is how?

the purpose of education is to develop individuals who are morally upright, excellent academically and able to face future challenges for the continuous building of a nation. in other words,to make super humans who will drive the economy of the country.as teachers, we are to develop these kind of people.

the world gives us alot of suggestions on how we can life our life fruitfully and successfully. many teachers will often give u stuff like to take life positively and learn to let go during set backs. but if i were a teacher i would give a very different answer.

telling some1 to take life positively is a joke. for the past 12yrs of your miserable life, you have been fighting in a cruel battle for a place in a higher learning institute(6yrs PSLE for better sec schs,4yrs sec sch for JCs, 2yrs for a rare place in U) , with it comes tons of stress and all of ur emotinal needs are secondary. and after all that, u spent the rest of your pitiful life working till u retire and die. to tell them take life positively is like telling a prisioner "at least u have the rats to accompany u". this is sad. i too am a part of this vicious cycle. but wad really drives me is that i have hope. not hope that one day i will strike the lottery become flithy rich, just enjoy my life in luxury. but hope that one day all this will come to an end. it may not be in my generation but it's a hope that one day the world will become a better place.i know it will be cos my hope is based on some one who builds the galaxies and the stars.

there are a million suggestions the world offer to dealing life's problems but all these suggestions in the end are pointing o nowhere. things like learning to let go, cos if u dun let go, new things/experiences dont come. the correct response shld be, we come to this earth naked,and naked we shall go. do not waste your life on earhtly stuff that are easily destroyed. instead invest your life into something meaningful and helpful to others.

as we continue our journey of life, let us not be hindered and misleaded by worldy solutions. let us open our eyes, and see the real truth that is out there, waiting for us. all we have to do is to reach out our hands and seek it.

2008-04-13T18:05:00.002+08:00

did i mention did i was chosen to be backup singer for worship? had our 1st practise today and it was totally awesome man!!

nv realise how hard issit to sing until the practise. the emphasis and tone of words so on and son forth. but im glad that im being used by the Lord to lead His people into song and praise. How refeshing!!

2008-04-13T17:56:00.002+08:00

feels like im wasting my time. feels im reaching out to a manequin. feel like giving up. should i divert my attention?

work doesnt help a bit. it's the same boring thing but twice the speed, twice the load and twice the stress.

depressed and compressed.

my only santuary, the House of the Lord.Amen.

2008-03-30T11:30:00.002+08:00

THE AGE OF MORAL DEPRAVATION AND HYPOCRISY

I guess many of us wouldn't fail to realise the conditions of our youth in the past century. Alcohol, drugs, sexual and criminal problems are often associated with youths of our time. It disgusts me and it also never fail to make me wonder what has society become. However, it is not the acts that has come to my concern but rather the root of our problem. The condition of the heart of these young people.

We cannot deny that the minds of our youth are affected in some way or another in a negative way. And some of the solutions that the world provide seem to worsen the problems. There are many books published that claim to help to change your way of life, changing u to be a better person. But in the end, anyone who practises it will just become moral hypocrites who claim what the seem to be but their minds and heart unchanged.

I had been on the internet and reading up friendster profiles. And some of the things people say about themselves is really interesting. There are people who claim they are friendly, open minded , patient and considerate. I would like to post these people a qns, would u be able to show all these characteristics to your parents withou a word of complain when they grow really old? When they need undivided attention and huge amount medical fees??This is a qns that puts us into shame. Friendly, open minded, patient and considerate as you are, you will not be able to do so just because of one simple reason, you are human and that's y selfish,lacking love. If u didn't show it out, in your mind at least there will be this cry that is complaining.

There's also a person who wrote that he won't mind the appearance and class of people he meet as all are humans and need to be treated equally with love. Very noble indeed. Not totally impossible but unless you are a saint of some sort. We read in the bible that even faith giants like the apostles have problem doing so when they met a prostitute on the streets of Rome.

So here's my point, there's a need for a renewing of our heart, mind and values. And we shld stop living as hypocrites claiming wad we are not as this hinders our goal.

I would like to end off with a declaration. To all my friends, I feel that im not worthy to be called what you thought i am. A pleasant person with a nice character. For i know in my heart there's a ugly side of me. There's a side that know one knows. A side which is impatient, jealous, complaining and proud. But that doesn't mean im going to unleash my ugly side for i know it will affect the people around me. But i am not going to be a hypocrite either! I admit my ugly and dark side! And, indeed, im learning. Learning to change my mind and my heart. Im learning to repent. Im learning to allow God to change me. I wish for u my friends, that u will allow yourselves to be changed by God too. To live out what we ought to be....not what we seem to be.

2008-03-29T23:39:00.002+08:00

mom has gone for a holiday to shanghai to find my dad. im alone at home. initially...it was quite ok till it came to monday and tuesday. everybody's busy and suddenly i had a feeling that im all alone. a gazillion thoughts ran thru my mind about life. eventually...everyone's gonna be away. will i live my pitiful life alone? and suffer the lonliness? Lonliness...it's a scary thing. i merely experienced it for 2 days but i could not bear it even.... So what am i here for? Might as well just pass away for all returns to dust anyways....why go thru the suffering?

the thoughts continue to linger in my head...till today.i am not fully enlightened about y am i here. but im convincted that im not alone on this earth even if the whole human race is wiped out from the face of the earth. it was during the ops msk period that i encountered the visible person ever so personally again. i was reading a book about Jospeh. He spoke to me thru the book about my attitudes in army and gave me a model who had faith in Him. He corrected my thoughts and calm my heart during my fustrations when the ops was extended.

and today, i am even more convicted that He is indeed alive and presence when i read a frend's blog on her decision of wanting to come back to Him. it was a prayer many of our brothers have prayed and worked towards to.He is certainly at work! In fact...in these few months or even yrs. He is alrdy at work! Now He has commanded us to harvest! May we now be obedient to His cry for the harvest is plentiful and the workers are few! Harvest is a short period of time. Let us gather all that we can for those that are left will be decayed and birds will come and feed.

To all brothers and sisters reading my blog. Let us pray and do our part!Harvest the great maltitude! With God as our strength, we will be able to!

2008-03-24T18:17:00.002+08:00

today.....being an off day, but i working day...i stayed at home whole day. so i decided to go mirc to have a look. to my dismay, i am convicted that the human races is in peril due to stupidity. so i tired talking to some people with perfect english. AND THEY DUN UNDERSTAND ME!!! i talked to this person "cutegal" (hey! u expect me to talk to a guy?!), i cant imagine how many times i have to rephrase my sentences so that she/he (u can nv b sure) can understand my messeage. need less say, it was an instant turn off. i swore nv to go mirc again.

2008-03-24T00:35:00.003+08:00

i went TKD training today. woohoo! and amazingly, i noticed that my stamina increased alot but my explosive strength has been reduced quite a lot. both my calf (moo)cramped during the training. and because of that i was beaten by some lower belt level punk. i used to OWN higher belt level punks. T.T i have DEPROVED!!! DAMN IT! but it sparked off the tkd spirit within me! i will continue to train to become stronger!!! rawr!!!

2008-03-20T10:03:00.001+08:00

PATA! PATA! PATA! PON!

2008-02-16T23:16:00.003+08:00

i was looking thru NTU website for the requirements for courses and i can say that i am totally screwed. >.<" all the unpopular engineering need a H2 pass in mathematics. i only got an E.though i passed, dun think i would be able to get a place. dunno if i shld try economics. the requirements are quite slack but i scared alot ppl would apply...and would flush me out.

NUS' no better. all the courses seems so zai. and NUS so much harder to get in. sigh---.

A lvl results are gonna b out soon. have been doing research on courses these few days. hope that i owuld get into local uni...

2008-02-15T17:29:00.002+08:00

VDAY AT THE JUNGLE>>>AGAIN!

for the 2yrs of my NS life, my valentine's days have been sadly spent in some rural jungle..being stung by hordes of mosquitoes.damn! just my luck!! i rmb in 2007,14 feb, i was on my 2nd last day of field camp. and we are going thru the thoughest challenge of the field camp. digging the dreaded shell scrape. it's basically a hole where u dig deep enough till u can put urself and ur bag in.i spent a whole day digging that freaking hole. i was shagged, i was hungry, i had heat rash. lol! thankfully, we were given a bathe after all the work. after 5days, our 1st bathe....AHhhhhh~~

so ytd...vday....i woke up at 4am to get rdy for providing medical cover for field camp. when i reached the site..i was half alsp. and continued to slept on the jeep. by on the jeep, i meant not on the seats but...on the body of the vihicle. i was too tired to give a damn. moreover, there was shot loads of stuff on the back passenger seats and the front seat are alrdy occupied. was raped by mosquitoes again. now one of my hand is bigger than the other due to the bites.only went back to camp ard 4pm. luckily no need sleep overnight.haha!

as i continue my NS, i feel more and more restless. perhaps im in the army for too long...I WANNA GET OUT!!! 9 more months!

2008-02-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

ytd went to god sis' hse.she brought along her french frend. so there was two ang moh in the hse...(her bf, and the french guy) awesome....whahah

nearly got drunk ytd. her frend brought this super potent apple wine to let us try. it was the most powerful wine i had ever drunk. this is y!

her frend gave me a shot of the wine and asked me to drink it up in out shot.at 1st, i smelled it. it didnt smell strong.then i sip a little.not very powerful either. so i took his advice and drank it in one shot. cos he said that it tastes much better that way. then....ZOMG!!!@#$^$%^&%^*&^((!!!

a fiery sensation went down my throat,and lingered in my sternum and stomach. my tongue went numb. the little shot was >50%. omg! my whole face turned instantly red. no only face...my palm also.and the scars all over my body appeared. when i tried to stand...i nearly vomitted. it took about 1.5 hrs for me to get over with it.omg!

i am nv going to drink weird wine in a shot ever again.

2008-02-09T10:09:00.000+08:00

a breakdown of my army "allowance" converted to SGD/hr

1 day total work hour: 11hrs
in a week, assuming mon-fri: 11hrs X 5 = 55hrs
in a month: 55hrs X 4 = 220hrs
one month's allowance: $500

average $/hr : $500/220hrs = $2.27/hr

not to mention there's no pay when u work OT. and almost everyday there's OT.

with OT. (assuming we work until 9, not uncommon)

1 day total work hour: 14hrs
1 week: 14hrs X 5 = 70hrs
in a month: 70hrs X 4 = 280

therefore average $/hr : $500/280hrs = $1.78/hr

conclusion: no matter i work OT or not, im paid less than janitors who clean up markets and coffee shops.And we're called sons of Singapore

2008-02-09T09:39:00.001+08:00

better than shaolin soccer. =D

2008-02-05T11:38:00.001+08:00

damn! my phone is spoilt!!! cant take any pictures... NOOOo!!!!! T.T it always show operation fail when i try to load the freaking camera. ahhh!!! and i read the forums, it says it's a hardware prob....which means i cant fix it on my own....damn damn damn damn damn! >.<"

have been doing alot of gyming and running a few months cause......im growing fat! ahhh!!! dunno how i grow fat also becasue i eat very very little in camp. the food must have steriods inside. mmm. cant blame also...cause the food they make are for active soliders who like exercise day till night everyday. i only exercise a bit in the morning..... :P like my frend says, good eat, good living (hao chi hao zhu), sure fat one! T.T nooo...

i think i shld cut down my comic reading...spending alot of money on it and im obessed with it. i buy comics till the shop owner knows me alrdy. otaku man.O.0

CNY coming. so happy. 6 days continunous no work. no stress. just hope that no one frm camp would call me. heck, just reject the call...m,uahahhaha!

2008-01-27T11:23:00.000+08:00

hello! havent been updating cos i was in camp...trapped there for the past 2 weeks. T.T por thing leh. nv go home for so long. dun have tv, comp and most impt hot bath! anyways, in this short 2weeks, loads of stuff changed due to my two going to ORD frends. one is medic OIC another 2IC. i offically tookover the role of MEDIC 2 IC. muahahahah! 2nd biggest man in medic department. which means i will have a say in duty and cover detailing. muahahahha! no more week end duties for me! yay!lol. i can really feel myself being more shrewd than ever. going to ask ppl do things...order ppl ard. this is good manpower management OK?!? XD

omg, o lvl results are out...which means a lvl results are gonna b out too....which also means it's time to apply for uni AGAIN. mmmmm.seriously dunno wad shld i apply. frends keep telling me to apply for engineering...but my maths so suck....and i hate maths! HATE! :(

and i think im growing old liao. not just that im going to be 20 this yr. got 2 in front liao...-.- but im starting to hav interest in qigong and taichi.... lol! and i wanna join my mum's taichi class! XD

2008-01-01T11:08:00.001+08:00

whhaha! actually i wanted to update my blog. but no time. so many stuffs happening these few days.hahaha.

oh yea, spent my last few hours of 2007 with my fdn class mates.we made/bought alot of food! in the end it was a torture to finish it. so we play the guess number game to make ppl eat the food. there was a huge tub of mango sago. anyone who kena the number have to eat one bowl. it was like almost an hour, alot of ppl kena but the mango sago seem to reproduce itself! wahahah!

btw, it's 2008! happy new yr everyone!hahaha. i dun have any resolutions this yr b'cos no1 keeps to it anyway!no pint having. =) time really flies. im going to be 20 this yr. if i had 100yrs to live, i had lived 1/5 of my life~! wow! but it seems to me like im just born not long ago.haha.and....im gonna be out of army in 10 months time!!!!! 10 months!!!! YEAH!!

i think im really blessed in 2007. being in army means, no com, no tv, no nothing. and i can really concentrate for once to do the things i really wanna do. which include: reading a book, writing letters so on... as i step in 2008. i've gotta start to watch my back. taking on the 2IC role and my colleages(not frends) try to push every job to me + a mdm who dont know how to use computer expects me to do everything.2008 is the start of mind games!! let me be shrewd in dealing these ppl! XD

2007-12-27T20:52:00.000+08:00

NOKIA N93 spoof. damn freaking hilarious!

2007-12-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

G
As little children
B Em
We would dream of Christmas morn
Dm7 G7 C G
And all the gifts and toys we know we’ll find
B7 Em
But we never realised
D Cmaj7
A Baby born one blessed night
Am D
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

G Em Am D
We are the reason that He gave His life
Am D G
We are the reason He suffered and died
Em
To a world that was lost
Am
He gave all He could give
D7 G
To show us a reason to live

G
As the years went by
B Em
We learn more about gifts
Dm7 G7 C
The giving of ourselves
G
And what that means
B7 Em
On a dark and cloudy day
D Cmaj7
A Man hung crying in the rain
Am D
Because of love, because of love

Eb Bb
I’ve finally found a reason for living
Bbm Ab
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him
Abm Eb Cm
In all that I do, every word that I say
F Bb E
I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

A F#m Bm E
We are the reason that He gave His life
Bm E A
We are the reason He suffered and died
F#m
To a world that was lost
Bm
He gave all He could give
E7 A
To show us a reason to live
D E A
He is my reason to live.

2007-12-25T00:18:00.000+08:00

bin hua sent me this link. it made me shed a tear. http://parentswish.com/site01/big.html

2007-12-24T11:10:00.000+08:00

lol! same thing happened to me during my medic course. i was the one poking though. =)

2007-12-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

today is my 1st time writing christmas cards to ppl. whahahha! yes...in my 19 yrs of life. a REAL christmas card. not just a card saying MERRY XMAS!(wad i used to do in pri sch). but a card which contains my heartfelt feeling for each and every person and my wishes for the yr for them. WOW! and it feels so great writing them...to let how other feel how much they mean to u. i guess they will b very touched when they receive their cards. ahhahaa. but i only wrote a few and have used up all my power.wont be writing any anymore i guess. so dun be dissappointed and jealous if u didnt get any cards from me. :) Christmas is about caring for one another rite? so no bloodshed pls.

christmas had always been "just another holiday" before i recieved christ.it's just a day to get tgt and get drunk. but now, it's different. it's much more. much more meaningful to me than any other festivals. it's the birthday of Jesus! Jesus Christ!

haha. anyway, this yr's christmas somehow doesnt look as exciting. perhaps i have no gf to celebrate wiv? or perhaps i've been in the army for too long and dont know how to enjoy myself anymore. who knows? but wad i wish that may the true meaning of christmas be revealled to everyone.my friends, my family.so they may celebrate CHRISTMAS as it shld be!

at such, i would like to wish everyone, a BLESSED CHRISTMAS!

2007-12-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

today, 191207 at 1730hrs, HENRY has been set into the wild. but he will be recaptured on 221207 0800hrs. T_T

2007-12-19T20:34:00.000+08:00

Medics all are we,

the medics of the field.

We aid the wounded and the sick,

the brave who will not yield.

Our pride we give,

our skills we share,

with valour pride and will.

No matter what,

we're battle-ready,

the MEDICS OF THE FIELD!

2007-12-09T01:20:00.000+08:00

time passes so quickly.it has been almost...one yr. one yr of my life spent in army.
let's calculate how much i've got from the tax payers. $500x12= $6000 .$6000 in one yr. omg, that's "alot". i know frends who only earn $1500 per month as an office clerk. im earning so much more than them. wow!

and my upcoming role of medic 2 IC just makes it better. +$20 per month and much more sai kang. luckily i will be the guy who plan out the duties. *evil eyes* which means i probably do very lil. even if do wont do weekend...muhahhahaa!

reflecting on this yr. few things wanna regret. 1st of all, being too busy with my own life.i know army is tough and so on. but time shld also b given to those frends whom i seldom meet. my parents. shld hav a more pro active attitude in meeting them. not just wait for them to jio me out. heh.

2nd, i did not lose weight. in contrast. i gain weight. SHIT!!! i hope it's just muscle mass.

3rd.i've become an evil person.im not the happy go luckily guy anymore.at least at work. i feel that im always treated unfairly when ppl push their job to me. how i react?threaten them.outwit them. isnt the way that shld be.although really need to save my own ass.

but,this yr is also smth i can b thankful of. after being in army. perhaps i have learnt how to appreciate lil things ard me. things like a toilet roll, water heater and even my parents and such. being away from them makes ur life so weird. we often tkae these stuff for granted. water heater always there to give u a warm bath and ur parents always there to look after u.we find comfort from them.

another thing is that i felt that i hav grown. im no longer that nerdy kid playing with computer games all day. im more aware of ppl's life. i wanna get involve in ppl's life. not just an advisor who give advices. but someone who will walk thru tough time.

one thing i wish i could improve on is being faithful and able to give thanks unto the Lord no matter wad happens. being in my current situation.(in army + no uni) i often complain and plead unto God to give me the stuff i wan. but, naked i've come and naked i'll leave.the lord has given and th lord has taken. all these stuff that i "have" isnt really mine. i shld alrdy be thankful for wad little i have. :( hope there will be a renewing and changing of my mind in this area.

2007-11-28T12:02:00.000+08:00

14 days of thailand hav finally come to an end. loads of memories, loads of fun and now im coming back with loads of work to do..SHUCKS! i predict there's a huge change at the work place eversince i flew overseas....a change that would make my life more difficult...T.T
anyways, those are best left for friday when i go back to camp and DO DUTY.-.-

we reach the thailand army camp at ard 12am and moved our barang barang to our bunk.when i got into the bunk on the 1st floor...got a terrible culture shock. it was delapidated. cobwebs everywhere and the wall is full of vadalism....i mean... graffiti which provides quite a bit of reading material and entertainment. then, we were asked to move to the 2nd floor. and....CULTURE SHOCK again! 2nd floor was nth like the 1st floor. it was much cleaner and brighter and at least look habitable.so we just packed our stuff and got ready for the next day.

the next few days, i was just providing cover for some recce. loads of equipment to carry.more than singapore cos the commanders very kiasu. carry the stuff till so shag that we "cheat" sometimes. jerry can only fill 3/4 etc...

then comes the finale! whahah! 4 days field camp...slping in the freezing jungle...YES, FREEZING! too cold to slp in the night, we had to get our slp in the morning which is a bit warmer. made frends with loads of thai soldiers. not to forget we had bbq spider for one of our breakfast. the thai soldiers caught the spider and cooked it for us. it tasted like crab...it was exactly like crabs just that smaller only!lol

the rest of the days were spent mostly playing LAN games and eating at canteen and also R&R which alot of ppl fell sick from it cos dunno eat wad thing. ha! WEAK!!!

oh yes...and i bought alot of stuff....mostly from the shops in canteen though..-.- the bags are super cheap man.hahah!

i guess i only got the motivation to write that much. still got loads to share...perhaps if i see one u u...i will share more tales with u! ;)

2007-11-10T00:43:00.000+08:00

at 101107 0042hrs. Gosu Henry was owned by a GOSUUUUUU! Nanchaku master.

2007-11-04T20:15:00.000+08:00

man i love this song!

Hugh Grant - Way Back Into Love lyrics

[Verse 1]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

2007-11-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

7 days more and i will be off to thailand. coming back only on the 25th.. but will anyone miss me? will anyone think of me? will anyone even rmb?? sighh.....with the current situation...looks like it is when i leave...then ppl will know that i hav left.....

2007-10-21T14:38:00.000+08:00

TKD!!! rawr!!!! i wanna fight someone!! soo bored at home..... =( will someone go out wiv me on sundays? =D

2007-10-04T21:54:00.001+08:00

zomg! im a martial arts fanatic! i went to see karate at my house CC. i wanna join! i wanna join! i wanna join!!!!! DIES**

2007-10-04T16:40:00.000+08:00

current state of mind: wadever.

every sat have to go back camp to do RT cover/duty...wadever
kena extra for one isgnature nv sign....wadever
no gf.....wadever (lol)
no money....wadever
A lvl results lousy...wadever
no uni.......wadever

all i care about now is MARTIAL ARTS!!! RAWR!!!

HADOKEN!!! SHORYUKEN!!!!WAATTAAA!!!

2007-09-21T20:29:00.001+08:00

i hate going to medical centre. damn sian. my boss is damn fussy abot little things. chair nv put properly blah blah blah. damn stupid. kena scold until like dog for this kind of thing. then always quarrel with medical officer and the other senior medic. disgusting. working there is stress man...there is zero trust between us and her.......i want to ord soon!!

2007-09-09T11:26:00.000+08:00

a video to educate supersitious ppl

wad is that above? i read the comments from youtube. it claims that this man was rude to his parents and was cursed by allah to turn into a monster.and there's ppl believing it! and i was like.....FTW?

aint it clear that it was some video effect??!?! look at the horrible make up on that guy's face! and according to biology, his head is impropportionate to it's body! surely a creature would not exist. it would just die. cos 1, it cant move itself around. 2 it's a retarded arad video.

2007-09-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

im now satying at 30 sce, a very very cui camp. so cui that the superior does not do standby bed cos the whole damn place is uner renovation.my room is made shift.and it got 6 beds in a room no more bigger than my study room.-.-

and the place damn boring.no facilities at all. just go there slp and hope the next day faster come....

ohh yea, tml may hav recall(high chance). those little green man thing appearing on tv. hav to go back to camp in 2 hrs time just to scan 11B(army ic).....sian....

2007-08-30T22:07:00.000+08:00

i am posted back to Pasir Lebar camp...SISPEC camp at boon lay. FTW!

best part is i stay out, BUT.......need to reach camp by 0715. buses only reach my place at 0600 to take me to kallang mrt. WELL DONE! GG! waste money for cab or sign loads of extra.

2007-08-19T01:28:00.000+08:00

do u feel this vid? :) i like it!

2007-08-12T19:12:00.000+08:00

so fast. 4 days hols are coming to an end. the time now is 7:15pm. need to reach camp at 10....
:(

these four days done quite alot of stuff. meet frends whom i've missed, gooing tgt and thinking of things to do.

Yuxian's been been down wiv some liver prob.doc dunno wad issit yet.let's keep her in prayer.

blogging for the sake of bloggin.nth much to say except, I WANT BACK MY FREEDOM!

2007-08-09T20:02:00.000+08:00

if u were wondering wad the hell is that above, that's taekyyon. the traditional martial art of korea. it is something like kicking and wrestling. i believe it started from ancient korean folk wrestling. when the Japanese invaded Korea, taekyyon was incorporated into karate and taekwondo was born. enjoyy! :)

2007-08-05T14:59:00.000+08:00

i watched Simpsons! muahahah!

Spiderpig, Spiderpig,Does what ever a spiderpig does.Can he swing, from a web?No he cant, he's a pig.Look out, he is a spiderpig

he's not spiderpig anymore. he's harry plopper now!

2007-08-04T00:09:00.000+08:00

BIG NEEDLES MAKE BIG BOYS BECOME BIG PUSSISES.

this fact dawned upon me when i was witnessing our weekly intravenous drip ritual. so i got this frend,You Ming. at first glance u would thot that he damn garang cos his body got alot of dragon,carps and mickey mouse but when he was poked....LOL! i still rmb wad he screamed when the needle went into him. "woah! NI NA B**Y! this one more pain than tatoo arh!!" and his best buddy(george),a body builder, was laughing at him.

then, george got poked. he too screamed when the needle went in. he even jumped! yeah! jumped! lolz! it was the funniest intravenous drip session i ever encountered.and You Ming was laughing back at george.

indeed, the needle was scary. i nv lent a spare arm so dat my frend could practise on it. :P

anyways, i felt that it would be good to type down the list of things i wanna do in the blog...so here we go!

-make a stop motion picture for my next yr's application of NTU
-remake interview video for application of NTU
-get TKD black belt!
-train up to get 6 packs! muahahah!
-learn gaft magic

i number of things to do. got the money and talents *ahem* now i just need the freaking time!! arghhh1!

2007-07-29T18:36:00.000+08:00

WARNING: SAD POST BELOW, READ AT UR OWN RISK!

these days, time has been going very fast for me.perhaps...a lil bit too fast...thinking back, im alrdy in the army for about 7mths! it's like 1/4 of my national service alrdy..even so, it didnt feel goood...

i noticed that when i got older, time seem to go faster and faster. im alrdy 19 this yr. if i had 100 yrs to live, 1/4 of my life is alrdy gone.25% of my time. and i felt that in this 1st quarter of my life, i havent achieved much. or shld i say, i have achieved nth...

smtimes, i just wish that time would stop for a moment. everything is going too fast. rushing to get work, rushing for studies...all the while, im always rushing. sch and work. there nv seem to hav a time where i can just b left by myself to think things through.

mayb, it's just because of God's grace that my eyes are opened. the perishable shall remain perishable and the imperishable, imperishable. everything around me one day will come to an end. even this body we have.........

but, thank God. for i know i will be transformed from the perished, to a child of God...

2007-07-28T23:16:00.000+08:00

ROFLLOLWTFBBQ!

2007-07-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

i am feel like a MAN, me is do 16G(yakult straw sized needle) intravenous drip twice cos my buddy MISSED my vein! feel good. super big hole on both my forearm. RAWR!!

basic medic course is becoming like comando course......new course commander initiating SOC wiv medic equipment, route march, field camp, so on and so forth.....

i injured my back just to land in a place to injure it even more.

2007-07-15T18:55:00.000+08:00

i went to a cosplay convention at pasir ris today wiv Alvin,Victor,Sheng Hui and Jing Jing and i would seriously and sincerely like to say that.......

FAT CHICKS and WIERD NERDY GEEK PHOTOGRAPHERS hav spoilt my image of cute anime and game charaters.

2007-07-06T21:31:00.000+08:00

eh ohh! so im in the 2nd week of the basic medic course in basic training wing at SMTI at Nee Soon camp.....o.0

anyways, the trainings aint that tough and we got to play basketball if we are good and hav free time. but one thing i dread every week. our weekly IV.

what is an IV? Intravenous Drip. huh? what?

ok, it's basically a session whereby we poke our buddies with huge needles and give them a drip. yeap! OW! but, guess wad? due to our noobiness, we often miss the vein or poke the needle through the valve in the vein. DOUBLE OUCH! so far, thereis alrdy 3 holes in my hand wiv bruises around it. sighhh..... 8 more IV sessions to go. T.T

2007-06-29T20:58:00.000+08:00

i can shoot M16
i can shoot SAR21
i can shoot SAW
i can Shoot M203
i can shoot Matador
i can use 840 signal set
i can use 940 signal set
i can use oxygen tank
i am under basic medic course

I am a SUPER MEDIC!!

2007-06-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

wow! im uber smart! lolZ! i volunteered for sentry duty thinking it was slack.... HELL NO! sunday hav to report to camp and be rdy by 6am the next day. would be at the jungle whole day feeding mozzies! IM SO FREAKING SMART!

anyways, alot of my closer alliances have been posted....i woner when will b my turn.. i dun wan to stay with the next bslc batch. i dun wan to everything AGAIN..urrghhhh...

Tml im the company duty trainee.....have to stay in camp guard telephone...sianzz....

2007-06-17T13:58:00.000+08:00

it gets kinda fustrating when things arent in ur control and u are just a sitting duck, waiting to be......shot, stabbed, captured ,chopped, steamed, fried.... u get the picture.

ohh weells, this is wad is on my mind right now.

If no uni in sg, means going back to HK and never coming back. noticed the word never? yes....NEVER! that's the decision given by my parents anyway. but, i cant help to agree that it makes absolute sense. no point taking private uni here.

private uni here are ex and not as good as the ones in hk which is much cheaper and more regconised.

anyways, i just handed up the appeal letter. i dunno if they would really bother to read it. i can only hope for the best. cos i would really misss my frends here. yeap....everyone.

oh wells, time will tell us everything......

2007-06-09T11:16:00.000+08:00

im shag.....shag shag, very very very shaggg... ZZzzzZZzzzZZZ dunno why sia....need to slp like 10 hrs a day then like enough.. zzzzz. mayb cos these days, i've been skipping meals...too sianz to eat..

2007-06-01T09:32:00.000+08:00

wisdom tooth extraction day 4...

the pain keeps increasing by the second.pain killers no long seem to work that well...

how does the pain feels like? i always tell them....imagine your arm is being amputated, ur brain keeps looking for it by sending electrical signals to the area. it does not get a reply..your brain sends even more signals.....

ohh! what pain! what agony!!

side track abit.ytd went to esplanade.saw some students doing cip(helping to build the stage thingie for national day). it suddenly dawned upon me...CIP IS BRILLIANT! i cant stop praising our govt for coming up with it for our students due to the HUGE economical benefit!

1st: u get a HUGE number of FREE workers who work for you! budget! budget!
2nd: these workers are highly motivated, driven by the desire to earn more CIP hours, they dont mind coming back to do extra work...FOR FREE! productivity increases!
3rd: CIP is an good excuse to use cheap...i mean FREE child labour!

wow! i cant believe that our govt is so smart! but there's one down point though. in this current era where our youths are so pampered, they cant even sweep the floor for nuts.using them as cheap labour wont really get much things done in the end.. =/

2007-06-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

for all of my bros and sis who havent got a uni posting yet

I don't know about tomorrow,I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from it's sunshine,For it's skies may turn to gray.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said,
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

Many things about tomorrow,I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,And I know Who holds my hand.

Ev'ry step is getting brighter,As the golden stairs I climb;
Ev'ry burden's getting lighter;Ev'ry cloud is silver lined.
There the sun is always shining,There no tear will dim the eyes,
At the ending of the rainbow,Where the mountains touch the sky.

Many things about tomorrow,I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,And I know Who holds my hand.

I don't know about tomorrow,It may bring me poverty;
But the One Who feeds the sparrow,Is the One Who stands by me.
And the path that be my portion,May be through the flame or flood,
But His presence goes before me,And I'm covered with His blood.

Many things about tomorrow,I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,And I know Who holds my hand.

"Our Father, which art in Heaven"
"Hallowed be thy Name"
"Thy kingdom come"
"Thy will be done, in earth as it is in Heaven"
"Give us this day our daily bread"
"And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive them that trespass against us"
"And lead us not into temptation"
"But deliver us from evil"
"For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen"

2007-05-30T23:29:00.000+08:00

as u all know...i havent got a place in local Us, so my parents decided that if i still cant get one by the end of army......i will go study in HONG KONG. ohh wells...i hope i do get a Uni here!

anyways, 1/4 of my ns life has passed and i have learnt a few things.

1.do anything u want but dun get caught.the famous SAF 8th core value.

2.slack only if u need to. slacking too much makes to look like a total lazy bum and u will get picked on by the commanders. instead, be hardworking normally and save ur leaves till out field or route marches. that way, u skip the difficult shit and ppl will close one eye.

3.be with the crowd.pretty simple.strength in numbers.makes ur social life in army a whole lot easier too.

4.talk nicely at all times to ur superiors.being in good relations with ur superiors helps u when u need to get leaves.they would give u easier tasks too and will recommend ur posting to better units.

5.SAF pays for ur medical bills.EXPLOIT IT! got wisdom tooth? book an appointment right away! take them out one at a time! not only does SAF covers the charges of the operation, extracting one tooth gives u 5 days MC! wow!

i think that;s all for today.tata

2007-05-29T20:04:00.001+08:00

im rejected by SMU
im rejected by NUS
im rejected by NTU
im rejected by all the Us

AHHh!! CRAP!!!! NEED TO APPEAL!!!

HENRY is very sad... :(

2007-05-01T17:42:00.000+08:00

urghhh, spiderman tix are all sold out...no spidey action today...im sad... =(

2007-04-14T23:28:00.001+08:00

2007-04-14T16:52:00.000+08:00

ok, so....i;ve been posted to SISPEC Juliet COy...a new coy in sispec. supposed to be a xiong coy cos the instructors come from foxtort coy.but up till now, i think the training is quite okay. so now i have to go to pasir laba camp in JURONG which is freaking far away and i only get to come home on sat afternoon.bleh....but oh welll, due to my tail-bone injury, i've got a 31days excuse RMJ,excused from running, marching and jumping...wow! and now im out of course. no need to any physical training and just do admin stuff....lol!!!ohh well...at least now im a admin boy who has fired M16, SAR21 and SAW. lol!

2007-03-22T12:47:00.000+08:00

POP LIAO!!! XD

2007-03-15T09:16:00.000+08:00

finally.9 weeks of BMT has come to an end.it was a time filled with hardships and suffering.but it was also a time filled with fun, laughter and brotherhood love.of course, it was a blessing being in Leopard coy, platoon2 section 4,the most boisterous section of all.we fromed frendships and encourage each other through this tough journey.

2weeks of block leave are now here.lots of stuff to do.apply for Uni, etc.. gonna meet all of my frends whom i miss so much..well, that's all for now. more stories in army for u if u meet me... ;)

2007-02-20T14:50:00.001+08:00

2007-02-17T15:02:00.000+08:00

Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male

Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

2007-02-17T10:44:00.000+08:00

im back from field camp, all dusty,sweaty,cuts all over and blisters all over my limbs.im now 70% a soldier.trained to protect thru killing our enemies.
anyway,it didnt rain during field camp.yay!so my uniform and such are not muddy.=) slping in the jungle is though; hordes of mosquitoes swarm over u,the ground is slanted and rock hard.we did things like drills and dig trenches.food was bad.we ate th same thing everyday....aahhh!

but im over with it now.yay!next book in we will be doing live firing and sit-test.another SAT and SUN burned..bleahh

2007-02-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

it's been 3 weeks, army life is pretty much very boring.im in a welfare company so things are not really shiong.anyway, here's a list of things completed.

grenade throw
IPPT cat
4km route march
6km route march(did not join due o vomitting)

everyday, the day staerts with 5 basic exercises.then hav a really sucky breakfast followed by area cleaning and the day's activity.my body is aching all over due to everyday's PT and not enough slp...today only got to book out at 1pm. booking in tml 2040hrs...ZZzzZZzz.bleah...

2007-02-03T15:58:00.000+08:00

Everytime b4 u drink,rmb...

The SAF 7 core values are,
Loyalty to country,
Leadership,
Discipline,
Professionalism,
Fighting spirit,
Ethics,
Care for soldiers!

drink up!

2007-01-28T17:54:00.000+08:00

training to be soldiers,fight for our land.
once in our lives,two years of our time.
have u ever wondered,why must we serve?
because we love our land,
and we want it to be free to be free...yah!

stand up!be on your guard.
come on everybody,do your part.
come on every soldier,soul and heart.
do it for our nation,do it for our Singapore...yah!

looking all around us,people everywhere.
children having fun,but we are holding guns.
have u ever wondered,why must we serve?
because we love our land,
and we want it to be free to be free...yah!

2007-01-27T22:14:00.000+08:00

hey! im back in mainland Singapore. 2 weeks confinement really sucks.i was totally cut off from civilisation.didnt know so many new movies were out.don't know any news.don't know wad happenings are there. don't know how are my frends. it's like prison lor! we only got 1 hr of our own time everyday.however, there are good things about army too. it keeps me fit.super fit. ensure i eat a well balanced diet and do PT everyday.my arm grew bigger after 2 weeks.

went back to YF today.so happy to see all of them. Alvin just came back from field camp....with 6 packs.like.... OMG! hahaha.our church now got quite a number of botaks. =)

anyway, im in Leopard company.which is a welfare company...aka white horse company.muahahah! but too bad, this year no white horse.but we are quite slack compared to others.we rain no need run.other companies need.o.0 haha.it's quite tiring in army.u get overworked and fall sick...like me. came back wif a very bad cough, flu and sore throat.all thankz to route march then a 20mins good ability run. felt feverish straight after.

im in the armsquad.quite stress.cannot screw up anything if not will kena detention barracks or kena confine.having field camp next next next week.hope if would be sunny.so my uniform wont get muddy.ohhh welll, that's all...seeya!

2007-01-10T17:40:00.000+08:00

11 jan 9am. Pasir Ris bus interchange. im going army soon.army NIA. big deal. stop asking me if i feel nervous or wad, cos i seriously dun feel anything. if nerds and fat ppl can make it thru, i think i will too. ;)

however, there's gonna be so many ppl im gonna miss.haha.dun wan to list...skarly those not listed get jealous. =)

anyway, i love my new vid below! =D

2007-01-09T11:07:00.000+08:00

wow!

2007-01-09T11:02:00.001+08:00

that's much better! thankz guys for accompanying me on sunday...my last sunday b4 enlistment..haha!

2007-01-09T11:02:00.000+08:00

looks so stiff...

2007-01-03T21:21:00.000+08:00

lol! i havent been updating so im udating today! banzai! hopefully there are still ppl who read my blog. =)

this yr's xmas and new yr like not much mood.went for countdown for both.and we were like...oh, it's xmas/ new yr. hahahah.

spent xmas with sec4 gang. nth much.hav dinner tgt and drank tgt.

spent the last day of 2006 with valerie,ling,jaspas,kelvin and darren.me being the noobiest flourisher...heck, im not even a flourisher.hahaha.

jc zouk party on 6 jan.dunno whether i shld go.got church on that day.and im doing sports.hahaha!but really wanna try my magic there.gonna kill all the girls. ;)

today's first day of sch.nth much to me.i hav no sch and is unemployed.lol.i wan go clubbing soon.lol

2006-12-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

2006-12-20T10:44:00.000+08:00

2006-12-19T16:14:00.000+08:00

ok! im back from HK. HK's weather is super cold. 9 degree at night.omg.damn irritating to go out. need to put on then take off clothes everytime.

anyway it was fun. i went to disneyland!!! it was super cute and super kiddish.hahahahaa. then went shopping. nth much to buy....all winter clothes. the food is great!!! roast goose!!! mee, pongeee,dim sum!! <3 shan, jealous not?? haahahah!! too bad nv take the red bean drink... =(

holidays are almost over for me...11 jan...haiz.....

2006-12-07T17:58:00.000+08:00

im am sick! cough cough** everyday go out..haha!

2006-12-02T11:08:00.000+08:00

im back from thailand.sawadee kup!!! :) loads of things happened this 5 days.superly duperly FUN!! here's a list of wad we did..

SHOPPING
MASSAGE
THEME PARK
MORE MASSAGE
FOOD

haha, this is the 1st time i shop for so much clothes!! yay!!!
also 1st time kena interogated by police in the airport.lol.if u wanna know u ask me bahh//
i think i wan to keep this short to make u all cyrious. =) bb!

2006-11-23T21:01:00.000+08:00

exams finally over! yay! all of a sudden.like nth to do leh...lol.nth to look forward to..hmmmm.....hahaha. going bangkok on sat.if u wan send me off, call me kay? =D

just now got this big fat cockroach fly onto my screen from the window.initially i tot was a moth.i see properly..OMG! cockroach!so i went to the kitchen to get my rubber band to shoot it.when i got back, it was gone.but i still hear its flapping wings.then at the orner of my eyes, i see it trying to sneak away. and i shoot it with my rubber band.it hit! and made a sort of hole in its belly.i then go grab my slippers and whack it with all my might! MY! wad an adventure!

2006-11-22T14:56:00.000+08:00

huili! dun be sad! smile like this kitty! :) so cute hor? like me! =D

2006-11-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

stupid dad, called back from china.ask stupid qns and spoilt my mood.

2006-11-19T18:07:00.000+08:00

studying was intensive today.i feel my head bursting.HELP!

4 and a half days more to freedom..........................................................will freedom = boredom?

2006-11-18T11:47:00.000+08:00

there has been a change in my holidays schedule.i dun think can make it for the sentosa trip as it has been moved to 28nov when in not in thailand.howver, it is replaced by outing with sec sch frends. =)

2 papers left, bio p3 and bio p1.pray for me, i havent started studying...

2006-11-16T22:41:00.000+08:00

tml is chem paper 1.after 1hr 15min, it's bb to chemistry.im scared.cos like not gonna be as easy as p2.sianz..

bio paper 3 on monday and bio paper 1 on thursday. As would finally be over. \m/

would be off to thailand on 25th-30th.
dun think i can attend the sentosa outing with yjc ppl.they set on 28nov.hope can push....